Again, Again

Almost ten years ago I travelled alone from Sydney to the medieval town of Avila in Spain, to attend a workshop led by author and teacher Caroline Myss. I’d been studying intuition and the development of self-esteem with Caroline for a few years, and this was no small journey, a form of pilgrimage. It was a special opportunity for me to be part of a small group and have a week immersed in learning and reflection with this master teacher.

On the first morning a man walked into the meeting room alongside Caroline Myss. As an unplanned addition to the program, at first there was some confusion as to why he was there. We need not have been concerned. This guest teacher, James Finley, proceeded to make a deep impact on our group from the onset.

During his earlier years as a Trappist monk, James had counted the highly influential monk and author, Thomas Merton, as his spiritual director. Over the course of the week, he shared with us some of the profound learning and practices he had received from Merton. And one in particular, about reading and reflection, has benefitted me greatly and stays with me to this day.

Much of this teaching is opposite to our current habits around reading for personal development. For example, the largest section in most bookstores is self-improvement or self-help: the self-help market is now a multi-billion dollar business, and most sales are repeat business. We are a tribe of seekers, and if we’ve purchased one book of this kind, we’ve likely bought a dozen!

Yet, there is another way, as set out by Thomas Merton and then James Finley. We identify a text, a book, that speaks to us and we read that. Again, again, and again…

For our personal growth and transformation, the repeated reading and re-reading of a book that speaks to us, again, again, can be much more empowering and impactful than reading many books, always moving on to the next one, and then the next.

The choice of what to read is important, though not prescriptive. This is non-fiction and we choose writing of wisdom—words that inspire us, expand our knowledge, and connect us with our inner grace. It’s a personal choice. Finding a “voice” and a style of writing that resonates for us is key. This reading is for joy and enrichment.

Merton’s own writing is a good example, including his spiritual essays in “No Man is An Island”. For further suggestions, see the link at the end of the Note.

Then we begin, and we read one page, only, each day. After reading our page, we reflect on what the words mean for us that day. The next day, we read the next page, we reflect, and so on…until we come to the end of the book, which, depending on the length, could be a few weeks, months, or even a year!

“Take more time, cover less ground.”

– Thomas Merton

And then we go back to the start and begin again. Same book, same routine, one page each day, a reflection on the words…

Yet it’s not the same. It’s a new experience. We read the same words again, from an altered perspective, and we go deeper, easily, without effort. This is repetition but not in a linear way. Imagine instead an upward spiral: as we read and reflect, we grow, upward, expansively, from the inside out.

The act of reading one page and taking a few minutes to reflect is also a short personal stop in our day. It’s an act of rest, nourishing and connecting to our being, that cultivates self-knowledge over time, and thereby helps us discover our true nature and our place in the world.

This type of reading and contemplation is a practice that purifies and strengthens us, from the inside out. In our busy, externalised world, now more than ever we need methods of going within and establishing our inner knowing. We can then cease thinking we need to always look outside ourselves for answers. This is true empowerment.


Neil and I invite you to have a look at some of our suggested books and reading.